In August of last year, I broke my left wrist, elbow, arm, leg and hip...sleepwalking. The leg was the worst since I had snapped the ball off the top of my femur. They installed a couple of screws in the bone in an attempt to save the femur. I have a plate in my elbow too that prevents me from straightening my left arm. They were concerned that my femur could "die" but I thought I would be back to normal by Christmas. Wrong again TJ!
I didn't have insurance so I couldn't afford followup X-rays, rehab or doctor visits. I survived with only 40 pain killers for more than a year. Since I was sent home, I've been on my own to deal with it.
I rode a bicycle to strengthen the leg. It didn't seem to help. I still do squats daily too but my leg is getting weaker. I already had nearly no ass, now it's just gone. They told me that I would need hip replacement if my femur died and I'm afraid it may have done it. I don't have the money to go in for X-rays to find out either. I'm seriously tired of hurting all the time. Feeling pretty useless and ready to quit breathing up your oxygen. I can't work, can't get any help....I'm just at the end of this rope.
I'm not suicidal...so no need to pick me up. I'm just feeling defeated right now. I guess I just need to vent because I don't have anyone to talk to most of the time. I'll tough it out. Don't worry about me!
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