Normal?

I've been reading about the effects of stroke and understand what's happened to my mother. Her symptoms are consistent, she suffered some brain damage that can be repaired with therapy.

My sister and I had a talk this morning about the changes I've had since my accident. I suffered some brain damage too. I have laid ceramic tile since I was a kid helping my father. I got a job installing a small bathroom shower and floor last year. It took me a week to complete it when it would normally be about three days. I can still do it but I get mixed up, lose my tools and can't focus on the job at hand.

I also remodeled Mom's bathroom and bedroom after her first stroke. I would start several things at once and couldn't complete any of them. I have started projects all around our home leaving tools scattered everywhere. It is a problem. I truly feel like my brain is functioning perfectly, but it isn't. I seem normal to most people around me but I still get whacky ideas that seem to come from nowhere.

People wonder why I don't go find a regular job, one where I just don't need to stand. The truth is, I'm way more screwed up in my head than I can explain. I don't know why I felt the need to expose myself to everyone during my hospital stay, but I did that. I now realize that I did it, but it sure doesn't sound anything like me. I don't trust myself because I don't even know what I'm going to say or do next. I'm not a complete whacko and most people would never know that there is something wrong. I speak clearly and can argue a point with anyone....but I'm not right in the head either.